Don't judge us please.

It really isn't any secret that my son is a handful. I hear the comments and see the stares that people give us when he has a meltdown in public. In the past few months we've had to address his issues with doctors. It seems to be that he does in fact have issues WRONG with him. Now to cover what is NOT wrong with him:
1. It is NOT the mother's fault. I am NOT a bad mother that doesn't dicipline my child. (Yep I've heard that)
2. He is not crazy or mean. (Yes another person said this to me)

I wasn't really going to post about this but I think I need an outlet to get this stuff out...

Over the past few months i've been in tears at different times over my son...over what I overhear people saying about him. It brings tears to my eyes just thinking it about it again. I've heard people I know personally say things, Strangers say things, children saying things about it.

I GET IT!!!!! MY SON IS DIFFERENT FROM YOU ALL.

He is a good soul that just needs a little extra in life.
Don't judge him or me or my family just because he acts different from the other kids.
I know he is a handful and I can't just sit at home with him and never leave. He needs to visit and attempt at being social just like the other kids.

Wow. So I feel a little better but my heart still hurts for him.

He has had a rough go at Pre-K this year and we are in the process of getting him a diagnose of what is really going on. The peditricatian seems to think it is a little or a combo of these things: ADHD, OCD, pediatric bipolar(not too sure about this one), ODD. We are also working on a full Psychological workup with a child Psychologist. It's just so time consuming and stressful. Also, my husband is still deployed so I am trying to do all of on my own and keep his wants for our son in mind. It's tough!!!

So please, I am only asking you not to judge people so harshly when you see a child acting up in public..You really don't know what the true issues are.

On to the next one...

So last night while watching tv a special news broadcast came across that Osama Bin Laden was dead. This stirred up a lot of emotions within myself, and even more so when the tv would pan to other cities such as D.C. and NYC having people in the street celebrating.

I just can't do that. The celebrating part that is. Yea it's a good thing justice was served, but to celebrate in that just seems against everything I am made of. I just can't sit back and celebrate in the street over something like this.

Now on to the what if's.
What if we did capture him and keep him for interrogation?! I'm sure we would have a TON of issues in that such as escaping or his followers trying to break him out, Our tax money paying to keep him alive, Hope for his followers.
Killing him was to me the most obvious and easiest means to justice. However, now what?! Will his followers attempt in punishing us?
Oh I am sure in some way they will... they have been attempting to do it since before 9/11. Will they succeed? We can only hope not.
America has succeeded in it's attempt to enforce justice for all the lost lives of that day and we can only hope that they don't succeed in finding their "justice" for killing their head honcho.

America will always have enemies lurking around the corners I just hope and pray that we don't let our guard fall too low so they win.

Catching up.

So yea I've failed at keeping this blog up. This deployment hit me like a ton of lead weights. Quite honestly, I've been too busy treading water in this life I have to even attempt to take a moment and type something up.

I have now managed to find my niche and get situated with the way things are. I must say I've done a good bit to insure that. The busier I am the less time I have to sit and dwell on the issues I can not change. :)

Nothing else is really new in my life. The kids are doing expectational at school as usual. Things two is having some slight issues with the deployment and his feelings but that is to be expected I guess.

I think this summer the kids and I will attack the house. Maybe painting a room or two and rearranging the bedrooms or something really time consuming. This weekend we have already started a veggie garden and they are excited to see it grow as last year they were down visiting family when it was harvest time..

So here I go..another day down and another one waiting before us!

Gearing up

So the new year is here. In our household we are having a lot of changes occuring. We are having to gear up for (wait for it............) DEPLOYMENT. Fun stuff right there. It is right around the corner and I'm finding so many more things I need (well want would be a better word for it) to get done to send along with my husband.

I'm having a really hard time this go around trying to work myself up for it after the last 3 years we've had. However, I MUST pull myself and my family up by the bootstraps and get with it.

I am sure I will. I have no other choice but to DO, Preform, Make the magic happen! There is no one else TO do it BUT ME!

Yay!
I feel a lot better now.
I do believe I'm over it.